im in the worst mood and all i can do is think about cutting

f u c k

i dont fucking want to talk to anyone right now

i’m in the worst god damn fucking mood

i just want to cry and run the fuck away

i hate this

i hate everything

i hate everyone

fuck this

fuck you

fuck everything

someone help me bc i just wanna cut that’s all i wanna do all i want is to feel a different kind of pain not an emotional, mental kind of pain but a physically kind of pain bc that is real pain the pain i feel on the inside is weak i’m weak all i want is to drag that cold, thin shiny strip of metal across my tortured wrists and see the skin separate and watch the blood peer out and fall down my wrist like my tears do on my face i want the mental pain to escape when i cause physically pain i want to see my tears and blood mix with the shower water as they gather on the tub floor i want to feel that burn i want to look down and feel alive i want to control my own pain instead of the others around me i want to bleed someone help me bc i just wanna cut

I wanna go eat some food so I can throw up lol

fucking fuck
i’m not even upset
but i want to cut again
i dunno
the adrenaline maybe
but

wow i haven’t felt this much of a need to cut in months

polarwrists:

Even if I had all the books I want.

Even if I had all the clothes I want.

Even if I had the boyfriend I want.

Even if I had the life I want.

I believe that I would still feel sad and unfulfilled.

(via polarwrists-deactivated20130116)

i wish there was one thing that wasn’t wrong with me

BIRTHDAY IN TWO DAYS WEEEEE C:
I’m getting old

Justin Bieber is performing where I live right now, but I’m not there…
brb dying

GUYS OH MY SHIT
I AM SEEING ED SHEERAN ON FEBRUARY 13TH NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!
OH
MY
GOD
I CAN NOT BELIEVE THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING
OH MY GOD I WILL BE SEEING THE PERFECT GINGER JESUS ANGEL IN PERSON
PINCH ME IS THIS REAL LIFE

the problem with going to a new school is making new friends

and the problem with making new friends is then eventually have to tell them about your past

and the problem with your past is it’s dark

anf the problem with it being dark is i am afraid they’re going to judge me

and the problem with me freaking them judging me is they won’t want to be friends anymore

I just saw a girl at my school with a Hipsta Please shirt
OMFG COME BACK AND BE MY BEST FRIEND!

jaweeds:

YOU KNOW WHAT’S ANNOYING

HARRY STYLES AND HIS FUCKING SMILE BECAUSE IT EDGES UP HIGHER ON HIS LEFT SIDE SO IT’S THAT FUCKING CROOKED SMILE WITH HIS STUPID BEAUTIFUL EYES AND WHEN HE JUST HAS HIS FUCKING HANDS IN HIS POCKET AND FUCKING SMILES AND HE KNOWS HE’S FUCKING RUINING YOUR WHOLE LIFE WITH THAT DAMN SMILE

IT’S JUST SO ANNOYING

(via vintage-vision)